(Ok so the title of this post is not the most optimistic in the world, BUT there is a surprise ending!)
This week the phrase "If life gives you lemons, make lemonade" has been on my mind. But what happens if you have all lemons, but there is no sugar to be found? I was getting very frustrated because I realized life is in control of both the lemons and the sugar.
And the only thing I could make was lemon juice.
I am not sure how this all came about but I think it was a combination of seeing my friend and roommate, Michelle and Alice, be occupied with Outdoor Ed (which I was rejected from), people in my freshman seminar talking about being in the Cabaret (rejected from), seeing posters about a cappella concerts (again rejected from), and finally being in the slow boat in crew.
After being successful in high school and knowing my place there, it is really scary having to restart and discover your niche in college. I had it all planned out, there wasn't going to be that awkward phase to adjusting. Boy was I ever wrong.
I really hated college this week, and I wanted to get out of here. God knew; I told him more times than needed. Finally on Friday, I gave up and told him that I was tired of trying to control every aspect of my life.
Well, apparently he was listening.
Last night I had a blast with my friends. There was no weight on my shoulders, I felt like I could breath. Putting my life into his hands and knowing he was in control was the most wonderful experience.
It made me realize that if try to follow my own plans, I will only find lemons, but if I let God be in control, I am sure to find the sugar.
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